[ Hanashite yo... ]

There are times in your life, in your week, that you want to be left alone. Times when that time with yourself is so important to everything that you do.

And then, there are times when there is no one there, no one to look at, no one to touch, no one to feel. Sometimes not having someone there can take a toll on you, and right now, I'm at that point.

Keeping my head up is one of the toughest things I've had to do; there is literally no one here. Those I have grown close to have left, and are not coming back.

I have not been genuinely happy in a very long time. I have not felt welcomed, thanked, or appreciated, and it fucking sucks.

I don't know how else to put it.

I am here alone, and the only words I can bring myself to say is this.

Leave me be.
Hanashite yo.

[ 3.2.1...Sayounara. ]

Saying goodbye is never easy. Its hard enough saying goodbye to someone close to you. When it is someone that you are in love with, it seems almost impossible. You know you have to leave; you are counting down the days, hours, minutes, seconds that you have left with them, until you have to leave, not wanting time to continue, not wanting life to go on. You want the clock to stop. You want your hearts to stop, you want to linger. You don’t want the sun to come up.


You want that walk under the stars to last forever...but it doesn’t.


It can’t.


It won’t.

At least not for you.


The clock does not stop. You have to breathe again. You have to let go of his hand. Your heart must continue to beat.


And the sun must still rise...